WHAT WRONG WITH YOU MUSH!

what wrong with me?why i feel like want suicied.why everytime im feel like a loser?why i cant love myself.i hate this feeling.i try everything to cheer me up but why i cant forget this fucking thing at my mind.im sorry dear i dont text you yesterday.my head was so SERABOT.im sorry.i hate this feeling.why this happen to me.EVERYTHING WAS SUCK TILL NOW.im feel like empty,i cant decide where wrong where right.i cant love everything around me like you all.im empty?where i gonna find my future if i feel empty at my life.dammit WHERE MY HEART GO?where.i can help my friend to cheer them but why i cant HELP myself.im happy look at my friend laugh and smile after i try to cheer them when they down.when this gonna be END.I HATE IT PLEASE GO AWAY AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.